From Randy's sister's blog -

Friday, January 18, 2008

My life so far.
Current mood: ashamed

Ok well as of right now im not doin to good. I hate the fact that my brother killed him self. I hate the fact that there was a girl there that couldnt do anything about it. I hate the fact that is was like a week before christmas. I hate the fact that he was only 24. I hate the fact that we always fought and I couldnt tell him im sorry and that I loved him one more time. Now that he's gone it hurts to think about him, even though I always do. I cant really even talk to anyone else about it because it hurts to much. I cry atleast once a day or every other day. I can barely look at his pictures and not cry. Ever since I found out, I have been treating every one like shit. I have a good temper one day and a extremely bad temper the next. I just dont know how to make it stop. And as long as I keep thinking about my brother I dont think it will ever stop.